Discourage

I'm feeling sad and discourage now.......I never know people can be so harsh when it's come to money.

I think I've been too naive to think that divorce is ok and people won't be judgemental, but apparently I was wrong.

For the first time since I initiated divorce, I felt overwhelming of sadness.........beyond words to describe. I can take it when his relatives being harsh on me, but my relatives too. They are worried I might borrow money from them, which I don't have the intention at all. It has never crossed my mind to borrow money from anyone........

They even told my mum to encourage me to give up one of the girl custody to Aaron........How cruel of them to suggest that......It's like telling me to cut a piece of my flesh and feed others.........Their "concern", I'm still young and pretty, I will remarry someday, so it's better not to have too many children with me, the other party will mind........
If the other party really mind, it doesn't matter 1, 2 or 3, they will still mind, so why bother...Anyway where do they get the impression that I want to remarry.......
Hope that they won't add more oil to the current burning fire.......I'm already feeling negative.
Do they think I want to divorce, if I could? My agenda for marriage is to spend the next half of my life with the guy I choose to marry. But I made a mistake, he isn't and I tried to make the whole thing work. Everything from tolerating to counseling, it's a one-sided affair which failed eventually..........