Bangkok Trip

I’m anticipating the trip to Bangkok. I’m counting down to 6th of November. Despite it still have 1 over month to go but I’m still excited over it.

Perhaps too long never travel and I desperately need a change of scenery. Lately I’m also busy with a lot of research that I have no time to go to my usual book hunt. It has been quite some time since I rent new book. It seems like I have to really make a conscious effort.

Few days ago, my colleagues and I were planning in advance in regard to our Bangkok trip. Since I have not been to Bangkok, I was an active participant and eagerly trying to digest whatever they have to say. I was very tempted by the food as well as shopping.

A few of my colleagues will be flying to Bangkok earlier for some couple timeout. One of them asked why my husband isn’t joining in the trip. I cooked up some excuse that I thought was logical. I am still uncomfortable broadcasting to people whom I’m unfamiliar.

But her question did touch my healing wound. To make it worse, some of them were saying how romantic the river will be. We will be staying at Shangri-La, and learnt that it is facing the river. It is a very ideal and romantic place to stroll down it. I could almost envision the scenario but I know it’s not going to happen.

No doubt it would be nice if that special person is there for me, but reality bite. It was then I realized that how I wished the marriage could work. If I were to say I hated him to the core, it’s impossible after all we did have wonderful time together, but internal and external factors rocked our marriage. Thus I temporary suppressed those bad memories and created plus a bit of original sweet memory. It is like fairy tale come true. But my research brought me to reality and I realized too that I did not have a lot of time to fantasize.

Somehow, my princesses, study, work and friends fully occupy my time that I know I couldn’t waste my time and effort envisioning a fairy tale that I know deep down will never happen………………….